7/14/24

Last night, someone told me he didn't want to pursue, and my comment made him realize that I am a woman who likes the chase. He may be right to an extent. We've exchanged glances since he joined my department, and we both know there's mutual attraction. I'm unsure if I want to fall in love again. Right now, celibacy and staying detached from relationships seem best because I'm focusing on many things and healing parts of myself that still feel broken. I wanted to cry during my drive last night, but I couldn't. I keep many secrets from others because I have empathy and create a safe space. I wish I had someone to love me unconditionally and prove it through actions. I'm exhausted, tired of carrying burdens. Men come into my life, but only temporarily. I feel closed off in a part of my heart. Forgive me, God, for my sins and bring joy and love to my soul soon. Continue giving me strength so I can guide others, even if I'm in pain.